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His Spirit is Free

Posted by benbeatscancer@gmail.com on July 16, 2020 at 7:10 AM

Ben's mom arrives and joins us.


We three ladies hug and cry,holding one another, beside Ben.


Your mama's here, I say.


Yea, he breathes...and it's barely audible.


He knows you're here, I tell her.


Oh, my boy. My sweet, sweet boy. She places her hands on his on his heart as his breathing continues to slow.  


We continues our stories about his life, family, Mia, the kids, his house, gardening, our wedding. Slowly, his one word breaths turn to gentle nods, then eventually silence.  


We sat with him a couple more hours.... and finally, his last breath was released. 


We cried again. We held each other and said, 'It's not fair.' We spent a little more time with him and when the nurse told us we could have all the time we wanted, we said 'We are okay.'


His mom said, 'He's already left this place, his spirit is free.' 


And as I looked at the shell of the man I loved, I knew it was true.


His spirit was free, he was no longer here.


His time with me was way too short, but he got to call it...

It's a terrible ending and I hate it so much. 

 

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4 Comments

Reply Julie
10:24 AM on July 22, 2020 
ð???ð??»ð???ð???ð??» RIP Ben. Your life with Kris was beautiful right to the end. Heartbreaking and beautiful, to be with your love right to his last breath. God bless you Kris. Gord and I send our love and hugs and know that we are praying for you everyday. Love you much ð???ð??»â?¤ï¸?
Gord and Julie Kelley
Reply Tania
3:44 PM on July 22, 2020 
Love you Kris. I am at a loss of words. Just know I'm here thinking about you and your love for Ben.
Reply Susan
8:43 PM on July 22, 2020 
Iâ??m so sorry for your loss.
Reply Trish
5:40 PM on July 25, 2020 
My heart broke when I checked in for updates. My thoughts are with you.